Reality check

I closed my eyes
Trying hard to sleep.
Perhaps I could catch a dream
and travel to faraway lands.
I could soar above the mountains
or shine infinitely like the cosmic stars.
I could be a princess
longing for my beloved,
or stare endlessly
at the crystal clear waters of the Caribbean.
I could achieve anything
but only if I were dreaming.
'Cause it was the moment
I realised was the beginning of my nightmare.
Bringing back all the terrors from their graves,
with shuddering breaths and racing heartbeats,
and sweats and devil-faced anxieties.
Then I woke up to find out
reality was much worse than nightmare,
'cause it never ends
and has to be faced.
Well now I am betrayed by dream
and nightmare gave me
a reality check.

~©Jashaswini_Mishra